stop kidding yourself.

i told myself not to get into these kind of problems but i found myself stuck in one.how ironic is that?

this annoying.lets see,im gonna list out my problem.
me>c
l>me
j>me
c doesnt know i exists.
FYI,if you dont get this, you're stupid.

j is one hell of a guy who doesnt know what he wants.

i sms-ed him yesterday.dayang and grace both said that i hurt his feelings and that he is frustrated with me. but i mean,that is the way i talk.you cant expect me to say ILU when we are not together right? and so i apologised to him.and then i asked him where do we proceed from here.and he was like lets just be friends. and then i sent him a long msg that i actually liked him a little but he said he did not receive so i sent again.and well,that was the last i heard from him.

and L wants to get me something.but i asked tes to tell him not to get something expensive. i didnt know he would still like me.but i definately cant accept him cos he is a year younger and he is not my type.i know its unfair but that's just the way i do things.

and then there is C. i liked him since the end of 03 and the start of 04 till i dont know when. and after not seeing him a long time in church, of cos the feeling would slowly fade away.and then one sunday, i saw him at jurong point.and it was around august that month this year.apparently he came back from his basic military training somewhere in april. well after knowing he was back,and he served the 10.30 mass, i was glad of cos.
and then on the 12 nov,he served my confirmation mass. and after that, his sis wanted me to take picure with him. and now im going to take the plunge. forget about j and move on with c.
im going to add him on friendster and then say i have to interview him because of a school assignment on army or police stuff.

listen hard here,
IM DONE WITH YOU,J!

i might have a better chance with c instead.


so ♥ clement.